This is a breakthrough moment for me

Hello
Gosh I'm feeling so much better today.

Started writing out my French and I'm printing out my English later and carrying on with Biology. Relief that I didn't have to hand it in today. It's raining also, which I'm very pleased about because it means I don't have to worry about my asthma too much... Heat brings it on lol unlucky for some but I hate summer, in fact I'm almost certain I have Reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder hehe.

Healing rain is a real touch from God. It could be physical healing or emotional or whatever.  

Nice little quote from Michael Smith there. Don't know who he is but I'm feeling better now and it's the first day it's rained since I've been ill, so this is a breakthrough moment for me...Don't you think? I also think nature needs to soak up some nourishment :)

Anyway was gonna mention yesterday that I really like this dress but it slipped my mind. It's on sale! £20 defo a bargin hehehe I want it!

But I'm gonna go do some French now, au revior mes aime!

He just spit out the oyster!

Hello blog...

Been a very odd day today. I'm watching Alan Carr now :)

So basically, I woke up at 10am feeling okay and then got really ill. Then I tried to get up and do stuff like my Biology Investigation and my French writing, and my English speaking....And my Business report. BUT OH NO I got ill again, a lot... Throughout the course of the day. So I cried for a bit to my mum..All girls need a little cry to there mummy, its just normal...

Then! I got reeeeaally sad. But then I felt okay. And then I felt really bad again and then I felt soooo happy it was really weird. Ew Alan Carr is eating oysters, and he just spit out the oyster! Ew I think I might be getting ill again....OKAY MY QUEUE TO LEAVE

Love, 

               x

And the world around us won't stop turning tonight

I'm so ill I just want to cry all the time
It's so hot and my chest feels like its cramping up cause I'm coughing all the time. SDGhbfjDAB|B R F


I'M SO ANGRY

:(

Missing Eclipse waa

My bed smells ill.
It's really depressing. And I don't like it.

Lauren called me earlier, she's so lovely. She asked if I'd be going to see Eclipse tomorrow but I won't cause my dad thinks being ill all week and then going out friday night is silly, waa :( I spose he's right but meh :(

I missss Loren n Grak :'(

Sums up my weekend

Haven't blogged since Thursday so I'll sum up my weekend

Friday - Ill stayed home and slept
Saturday - Did some work went to a friends in the evening
Sunday - T4

Sadly didn't enjoy it as much as I first thought, firstly cause my best friend Grace wasn't there and secondly cause I was ill with far to many messed up things wrong with meh. Ah well

Monday - Ill again stayed home and slept, French Homestay people (Soph Bex and Laura) got back home, missed them so much can't wait til I'm officially better and can see them properly!
Tuesday - Ill again staying home trying to get my French inside my head

Like a little girl cries in the face of a monster

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable

So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to fuckin' tread the ground that I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up And 
like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up And 
like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
is there anyone out there cuz its gettin harder and harder to breathe 

Should be doing my English Speaking

can you honestly say you know a very cute guy?
Yes I can hehe 
Have you ever made someone feel bad?
Um maybe?

Are you pleased with your current lifestyle?
Yes and no
Do you wish it was Friday?
It's Friday tomorrow, but no I don't, I wish it were Sunday!


How many straightening irons do you own?
None
Right now, is there a person you can rely on one hundred percent?
Yesss
Are you aloud to stay out past ten?
Er dependss
If you could go back in time, would you?
Hmm nope unless it was like to 1980's
Thinking back, are there people you have no idea why you hung out with them?
YES AHAHA 

Who was the last person you had a conversation with? about?
Courtney about seahorses
Will your next hug take place within less than 3 hours?
Depends 
What was the last drink you consumed?
Water, cause i'm a water baby
Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
Yeah :( 
Are you tanned?
Luckily I am at the mo :)

Who is in the house with you?
Sissy, mumma and papa
Who do you sit next to in your second period class?
Tomorrow? Second period? Either Tigs or Iona and Sophsoph
Ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Hahahaa yes
What were you doing at 9:30 last night?
Gettin' redi 4 bb
What time did you go to sleep last night?
er 11/12ish
When a conversation dies, do you try to think of more things to say?
No
Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
My aunty in Singapore
Think back six months ago, were you single?
No
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
I dunah
Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?
Probs my mum
What are you listening to right now?
I'm bo yo
When was the last time you were on the phone after 2 AM?
God knows
Who sits behind you in English?
The wall
Last week, were you happy? Why?
Um yes and no, work experience 

Do you need to say anything to someone?
ErrRRRrrrRR
Ever been lied to someone you thought would never lie to you
Yes.
Are you starting to realize anything?
A couple things
Have you ever fainted on the bathroom floor?
No don't be stupid I'm not that melodramatic 
Do you like your life as of now?
DEFO
Where was your default picture taken?
On the way to Namma Bay in Egypt in Easterr
Do you believe ex's can be friends?
Depends but I sposee so
Do you prefer to call or text?
Depends 
What bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine
When is your birthday?
18th feb
Night out or night in?
Night in by myself
Can you easily tell if someone is fake?
No I find it really hard to read people but I'm learing
What time did you wake up? Do you wish you could have slept in longer?
6.30 or 7.10 and yess
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Not good, good
Are you happy with the way things are going?
YEAH
What would your reaction be if your partner cheated on you?
Kill them
Who did you hangout with in the last three days?
Myself
What is something you currently want?
:$
Will the last person you kissed, be the next person you kiss?
I hope not
What did you do Saturday?
Lozzle came round
What are your plans for tomorrow?
Noffin
Would you rather date someone who is extremely protective or not protective at all?
Both

Where do you want to go to college?
* University and not sure
Do you prefer drawing or painting? Any particular reason why?
Both depends what moood I'm in 
Do you prefer travelling alone or with people?
With peeps

What was the last book you read?
A really good book which I've forgotten the name of
When dating someone, do you try to think about the here-and-now, or do you often think about the future?
Future, sadly
how do you feel about long-distance relationships?
They're stupid

Do you think you're more serious or more silly?
Silly, ofc
Do you believe in adoption?
Yes
Are you more comfortable around the same sex or the opposite sex?
Depennddss
How many people know your deepest, darkest secret?
No one
Do you own a mixed CD that's purely acoustic?
Nah
Look in your inbox in your phone who do you have texts from?
mum, sophie

Do you lose interest in people easily?
Yes
Will you ever get a tattoo?
NAH
Do you think that crying is a form of weakness?
I hope not I cry all the time
What is something that completely disgusts you?
Some of the things I hear about people...
Have you ever given up on something you really desired?
YEAHH
Which would be worse for you: having the relationship with the person you love most end immediately, or drifting slowly apart from this person, knowing that nothing can be done to stop it?
Drifting apart slowly :(

Your statistical chance of being murdered is 1 in 20,000. Does this scare you?
Nope
Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?
Yes
How many boyfriends have you had this year?
Er 
Whats the problem with you and the last person you kissed?
He was a c word hehe :)
Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
Similar but different 
Do you believe that you can change for someone?
I won't change for no onee
What was the last bad thing that happened to your phone?
IT KEEPS DAMN BREAKING!! :@:@

Pretty if the sun don't shine

Don't you know who you are? You're my shooting star
Now that I officially have asthma, I can't stop thinking about it. And when I think about it it's harder to breathee, but when I don't think about it I'm completely fine :)

I'm so stupid. Today was poo, only me Krust, Gee and Pooey were actually at school so YEAH rubbish but it was kinda nice to see what it's like to be in such a small group, kinda lonesome though don't know what I'd do without my nine awh luv dem